Changing Someone’s Life

This is an old old draft post but I liked it so am finally posting it. It’s a bit outdated but whatevs.

It’s been a strange week. I’m going through Step 4 in my al-anon recovery process. I’m on the topic of love. It asks, “How have you expressed your love toward others?”

I could barely think of anything. I searched my mind and my heart. I still could not list more than a few things. I told myself, “You are not a loving person. You don’t love anyone.” Sounds crazy, but sounded partly right at the time. I doubted if I could really love someone else… you know, the kind of sacrificial, self-less, unconditional, all-giving love. I also wondered if I am having any real positive impact on those around me.

So today, someone that I don’t know came up to me and told me that they went to a meeting. They said that I talked about unconditional love at that meeting, and that that meeting changed their life.

So yeah, that happened.

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2013 – First Post

Hello 2013.

Hello blog.

It’s been a while.

I got a letter from Compassion that my sponsored child will be graduating from the program this year. I am very sad.

I am happy that she has made it thus far. She’s going to college and on the right track… she seemed to have a bit of a burden to provide for her family once she graduates though. They give an option for us to stay in touch if we mutually want to… and I am pretty sure she will want to. I hope she will…

Took the kiddos to Disneyland over Christmas break. Did a bunch of other activities as well… like the USS Hornet in Alameda.

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They liked it. AJ kept on pushing all the buttons and I had to carry him down most of the steep stairs… although, towards the end, he wanted to do it “All by myself.”

I’ve been thinking about my One Word for 2013 for the past few days and I am leaning towards Embrace. Or Enough. Embrase will remind me to live in the moment and to embrace whatever is in front of me at that moment. Enough will remind me that I have enough. That I am enough. That God gives me enough. I am still really liking this way of doing resolutions.

2012’s One Word was humility. Boy, I learned a lot of lessons about that. Mostly about how sinful I am. I scare my kids with my anger sometimes. I scare myself too. I am on step 10 in al-anon so I’m trying promptly admit it when I am wrong. First pick-up from school in 2013 started with, “I’m sorry for… do you forgive me?” Of course, my Christian forgave me without hesitation. Children have such big hearts. No bitterness. No resentment.

Christmas season was a little bit insane for my etsy shop. I totally did not expect that. I raised almost $1000 for Compassion. I shall be better prepared this year!

 

 

Yay air freshener.

So, I go to Al-anon. There is a meeting on Sundays that I like going to sometimes. They have a room that kids can play in, with a TV and video, and videos! And toys. It’s right next to the meeting room, so it’s kind of awesome. Sometimes, other people bring kids too. But the room, it has an awful, awful smell. Like someone vomited in there. Or the room has B.O. (body odor). The room has really really bad BO.

Today, I grabbed my bottle of air freshener on the way to the meeting because I had both kids in tow and didn’t want them to have to smell that smell the whole time. It’s a huge bottle of Fabreeze. I got it for free a long time ago, because I blog over at Kimchi Mamas and sometimes, people like to give bloggers free crap.

When I got into the room, I sprayed like 20 squirts of the air freshener. I hoped it would do the trick. I popped in a video and the kids were content. About 10 minutes into the meeting, my older son comes out and tells me that his stomach hurts and that his throat feels funny. He proceeds to vomit all over the (thank God) vinyl floor. It starts to stink really really bad. Way worse than inside that room. Someone thankfully brings me a whole bunch of napkins. I clean up the vomit (it’s a LOT) and am SO glad that I have the air freshener with me because I spray the heck out of that room. It doesn’t smell like vomit anymore and we can have the meeting in relative peace.

I have no idea why today, of all days, I decided to bring Fabreeze to my meeting. But I am SO glad that I did because it would have been sooooooooooooo gross (more gross than it already was) if everyone had to sit through the entire meeting with the stink of vomit vapors filling the room.

Thank you God.